Yesterday was one of the hardest days in a long time!
Some days have been harder than others. But yesterday probably made the top of my list. I’ve been struggling with my insecurities so much that’s its been taking a toll on my relationship. It is absolutely not his fault, he’s been doing everything he can to make me feel better. I’ve just been so irritable that I get mad over the tiniest things and my first reaction is to yell.
Yesterday I had a pretty traumatic flashback of something that happened in my childhood that my mind pushed so deep I forgot. This flash back just came out of no where and ruined my entire day. THEN after I have this flashback my vape DISAPPEARED (found it stuck in the recliner hours later). I tore my entire house apart trying to find it. The longer I looked the mader I got.
Once I calmed down I felt so much guilt that it was just eating at me. I cried for like 4 hours straight. How can I reteach myself to react better so I dont experience this guilt? All I want is for Nova to have a happy loving childhood, which does not include seeing me react the way I did over such little things. Has anyone else experienced the struggle of trying to be better than your parents and feeling like you’re failing? Because same 😓😪
My Crazy Life 